With school, I have made dumb choices when it came to my class schedules. I took weird classes to do online because of work. And yes they are driving me insane because most of them, required a lot of time, and also have programs that my cheap laptop doesn't have or open. In my house I can't concentrate when it comes to homework because I have a mother who is physically and mentally sick and it's so complicated.
I started today to look for apartments to move out with a friend, but to do that I think I must look for a better job, because rent in Boston even if it's split in two people, it's very expensive. But as a young woman I feel like I need a little more privacy and freedom. I don't have that because my parents are very old fashion and think everything is bad. Yes, doesn't it sound like I got it bad? But at the same time I have defiantly learned that "IT COULD ALWAYS BE WORSE". That helps me through my downs. Why not be grateful? After all I have my parents, sick, and being a pain in the behind but they are here with me, and I appreciate it all.
Today all I can think of, is a little getaway, a small vacation away from everyone and everything... Just to relax and be in peace. In a warm place where the sun shines bright and there's a blue beach I can hear the waves to. I am really looking forward to a vacation. I need to release some stress, and what better than to go some where... Anyways we'll see what happens.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~As I see my life...
As I see my life,
I feel so many emotions
Positives Negatives,
Who said life would be perfect.
As I see my life,
I cry, Smile and get even angry.
I know it could always be worse
But sometimes settling for less its not an option
As I see my life I look back and thank God
for what I've loss and what I've gained.
Sometimes I wonder how
things could have been different.
As I look at my life I see a
huge difference.
I have matured so much
and should be proud of this process that I've made.
As I look at my life I can't say I've made it
but can say I'm in the right track to
something better and to greater.
Kiara,
ReplyDeleteGreat post... it begins with your stress, anxiety, concerns over your current relationship, but then your poem shows strength, confidence, resolve...
Just by writing some of the gunk out... the stresses... and acknowleding the issues at hand, we can simply start to find relieve. We start to process it all and then decide what we can do to make corrections and changes. Those decisions will come to you and it will feel good to make them happen.
Each step brings discomfort, learning, and eventual strength and greater power. We have to step into our own.
Yes, moving out may be a good step for you. Have you looked into Quincy? It's still relatively cheap compared to other parts of the city.
Good post this week. I think it's raw and honest and that you're finding strength in your voice through your writing. I can tell that you're getting it out and listening to yourself.
You're on your way to the change that you seek. Day by day. Week by week.
GR: 95