Fear is something that is part of the human being. I've heard plenty people act tough and say they only fear God, or that they simply don't fear anything. I think that EVERYONE has a fear of something, whether is loosing a loved one, getting hurt or other simple stuff. My biggest fear is pain and betrayal. I've gotten betrayed, played, cheated, lied to and hurt by many people in my life. And I'm sure that it'll continue to happen. People are just people.
This fear of getting hurt, is really keeping me away from real happiness. Sometimes people just tell me, "Let it go, move on" but I am really bad at letting go and moving on. It's easier said than done, and I'm not good with starting over which it's not good at all, because life its all about starting over. I sometimes wish that everyone had the same intentions with me that I have with them. I don't understand what's the benefit of hurting others and breaking their hearts, you win nothing. I understand that everyone's not perfect but their actions should still be different.
Things that I've been doing to overcome this fear, is staying positive. Making my self believe that not everyone has intentions of hurting. If they do hurt me, I have to forgive and keep it moving forward. Sometimes is hard to forgive people that you deposit your heart, soul, and trust and they still tend to betray you. But I've had to learn that not everyone is genuine. not everyone had the capability of loving and not using you. Having God in my heart and having my back it's the best way of overcoming this fear.
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Betrays
As a little girl
I always asked my self,
Why do people hate?
Why do they lie and betray?
Why not just keep it real
before is too late.
Loving like before
it's not the same.
People are cold and
always change.
Instead of for good,
its always for bad.
Turning you back
at the the people you love it's
not correct.
Trusting people is coming overrated,
Now people don't trust not even
themselves.
How can you live in a world
with the fear of not
trusting and getting hurt.
If even in the bible says to love
your neighbor as you lover yourself.
Lets race our children with
a different mentality,
Lets show them what love and
respect is,
instead of hate and bitterness.
I guarantee you
that the world will be a better place.
Kiara,
ReplyDeleteGood post... again, it seems a little short and rushed, but I appreciate that you write from your heart and write about what's real to you right now.
This is a hard post to read - it's full of frustration and desperatation.
It sounds like you've had a history of betrayal. But what is your role in this? Hopefully, through all of this journaling, writing, and learning points in this class, you may be able to better understand why this betrayal keeps happening.
Are you just meeting the wrong type of people?
Where are you meeting these people?
What can you do to listen to your heart more - so that you can spot a phony right away, before you invest in a relationship with that person. You have that intuition - and it will grow stronger the more you realize yourself.
But it sounds like you've hit a tipping point with being around untrustworthy people. See if you can find someone new, in a healthy environment, with a healthy disposition. They are out there for you and you deserve that type of honesty.
Your work this week is raw and good, but again, I'd like to see an expansion - in time, effort, and a longer post with more stories and detail.
It's great that you identify the fear of betrayal... but there's no detailed story about it, there's no characters, there's no story for the reader to learn from. Don't be afraid to tell your story - I bet it can help others. Maybe inspire them, too.
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