Life Goals

"There isn't anything materialistic nor money or gold that can buy us eternal happiness or heaven", said my mother always. I know that probably money helps us move forward when it comes to our needs and peace of mind when it comes to food and bills. But at the end of the day I've met so many people that not even having millions of dollars, own companies, have houses and cars aren't happy. They still feel incomplete. The best quality that a human being can and should have is a humble heart and soul, that is the only way people will remember us once we're gone.

Yes I want to be financially successful but I also want to help society with what ever and everything I'm able to. Sometimes we don't see how just $1 can make a difference in others life, but it does. I may not have a complete sketch of what my future may look like, but I know that I want my family to be taken care of. If I have, I want them all to have as well. My goals is to 1. Be happy and 2. Stay humble. I always ask God to give me strength to never become a bad selfish person even when I get hurt or betrayed. I just don't want to be like the people who hurt me. I strongly believe that giving out, to me is more satisfying than receiving. Therefore that's my goal.

I don't want to be specific in what I want to give to people because once again I don't know what my future is holding on for me, it can be less or more than what I expect. But I do know that I want to help out, whether financially or even love and compassion wise. Love and compassion and even a little time that you share with others make huge difference in people's life. I've always said it "Give me love, honesty, loyalty, and time, and I will appreciate it for the rest of my life, because these are things that I value the most, they stay in our memories for a life time. I've seen many cases in kids, including with my own mother, that she'd buy me expensive clothes and presents just to repair that either she was hospitalize or just simply sick. And even though her health wasn't necessarily her fault I would rather have had her love, time and her just being a mother instead of buying me  stuff. My goal is to be a better person, a better sister, daughter, friend, future wife and mother, and a better me point blank. Be there when my people need an ear to hear them out. That's my goal, because it'll hurt me to hear that a close friend of mine killed him or her self because didn't have anyone to to cope with.
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Dedicated To My Grandmother. 

Love and compassion
is what my elders taught me.

Now is that time
that I make them proud
of what they showed me.

so that they can know
and say it was all worth it.

My grandmother didn't have a lot
but the little that she had
she shared with all,

Everyone still remembers her
as a big hearten caring woman.

She always said
"where one eats 5 eat"

Growing up I didn't get it,
but now I see that she was right.

Being wise
is a gift, that much don't have.

There are lessons and values
that no school or education
will teach.

That's why I now seat
and value all the advice
that I once heard as a child.

Values and having a humble heart
is a difficult thing to find.

Because of the days we live
it has become harder and harder to find

But that's why
I have compromised

To be old at heart
And keep the memories
forever alive.

My job

Gratitude I feel about my current job is that I can see how excited kids get when they walk in and when they walk out. I work in a frozen yogurt place called "Pinkberry". I am currently a shift lead which is not a bad position but a lot of work. We are in charge of the money daily and also of the training of the rest of the team members (employees).

At Pinkberry even if I am going through a bad day I have to leave my problems at home because it's supposed to be a happy place. Yes sometimes its super hard and challenging. Some people get fired because after a while they get tired of being "cheesy" because it is a cheesy job. So cheesy that the 75% of employees are females.

I might not work here forever, but right now I got promoted withing 3 months of only working there because of my good work. People that have been working there for ever have not and I know they probably were a little upset but I think I deserve it for my effort and hard work. They are really flexible when it comes to school, but once you come a shift leader they go hard on you and gives 0 rest. As for now I will be good here. But of course this is not it for me.


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Above and Beyond

Ideal Future

In about a year I am planning on being done with my school and becoming an ultrasound technician. I might be working in a hospital just as I always wanted and dreamed of. In a couple of months from now, for my birthday my friends and I are going to Orlando Florida. After that, by June my friends and I are going to Jamaica. I always wanted to travel, and this is an opportunity that life is definitely offering. I just needed the right friends to do so and I'm so excited to do so. That is regardless not my priority but it is one of my goals and to do so. But yes I am focused on being successful with school, on the road to my career and dream job. I am of course planning on having a family on my own, probably in two years from now. Right now my mail focused is finishing school, buying a house and then doing things the right way. Is always better to have everything settled for when kids come to this world.

Unexpected Twist

An unexpected twist that has recently been happening in life right now, is in my love life. I am very happy that not only I have a bright successful future, but so does my soon to be boyfriend. From being a guy of parties to now starting his very own business, from being a ladies man, to now being only my man. What else can I ask for? This is truly unexpected. I always do expect a lot from my partner but I simply didn't expected this much of a change. I mean he is offering love, patience, loyalty, commitment, and in the future a family. It may not always be perfect with roses and peaches but as for now, I am so enjoying this happiness. His believes are now my believes, he is going to be a billionaire and even though God knows I don't care about the money I'm happy that he is thinking about a better bright future. 

 

Just as my boyfriend I have faith on being rich not only in money but also in love and happiness. Everyone wants to be successful and full of cash, which I do too. But honestly even if it doesn't go down that rich road, I want to live comfortable with my self and the people I love. If this goal becomes hard I will still be happy for the blessings that I have and will achieve. Always looking above and beyond.

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I can see me in a better place

a better place than yesterday.

Working to a better future

will never be easy 

but it is worth it.

Happiness and love 

is all I ask for.

Being in love and 

being loved back

is all in life. 

The greatest treasure 

is happiness

I can truly say that I am currently 

rich

My future awaits for me

with  more to come.

Smiles and lots of laughter in a coach 

Seeing my loved ones happy.

Not everything that shines is gold

So that's why 

My goal is to have smiles

that shine 

because that's more than gold

 

it's simply priceless.

I am working hard 

towards that goal
and dreams...

Visions Of The Future

What I will love to see my self as...

I would love to always have my birth family together and of course God in my heart. I want to be an ultrasound and make lots of money. As well as getting married to the love of my and parents of my kids. I will love to help out families who are in need my whole life, and kids as well, I want a huge house with a gigantic pool. I would love to travel the world.  I don't think I am asking for a lot... Everything anyone wishes to have. God, love, family, peace and health!!

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What do I see?

Now I see 

Now I see 

I see a brighter future 

ahead of me,

Now I see

Now I see

I see a better me

than what it used to be.

Now I see 

Now I see 

I see me dressed as 

what I always dreamed to be.

Now I see 

Now I see 

I see a future wife 

dressed all in white.

Now I see 

Now I see 

I see a success marriage 

and a happy family.

Now I see 

Now I see 

I see a rich in money

and in healthy family with kids.

Now I see
Now I see 

I see Lots a cars

and traveling to mars.

Now I see 

Now I see 

A bigger family

with lots of laughs.

Now I see 

Now I see 

I see me seating 

at the dinning table

praying for the world peace

Now I see 

Now I see 

A family taking vacations

every summer and 

seeing the the beach

Now I see 

Now I see 

I see me with my grand kids

watching movies on big screen TV.

Now I see 

Now I see 

The blessings that God 

has for my family and me. !

Passion Is Life

In order to live, one must have one or many passions. Passion to good and positive things that will motivate you to wake up everyday.
My passion is helping people out. I have noticed that ever since I was a little girl I loved helping others. I was never bothered to even take care of deadly sick people. Probably because my parents were always in the hospitals praying and visiting random people. People we didn't know, but were in need of love, a prayer and at times materialistic stuff too. When I was a little girl, and lived in Puerto Rico, next to my school there was a nursing home fore elder people. I remember being in the first grade and the teacher took us on a trip there. It was around Christmas time and she took us (all her students) and we read, sang, danced, and even played with the elders. It was such a nice experience. I probably was about 5 or 6 years old, and I still can remember how many smiles we put in those faces. I kept going after... I even made a new "grandmother" that taught me how to play cards.

Ever since I was little my dream job, was be a doctor. Find cures, and ways for others to feel better, well and smile. But as we grow things do change. We start lowering our views of life, and we get lazy when it comes to schooling and learning. Then when I turned 16 years old I said that I wanted to be a nurse, which then I took an internship for Boston Medical. Then in that internship I met a ultrasound technician that his name was Bob. He really changed my mind. He said that he had studies nurse, x-ray, but decided to do and stay at the medical imaging department. I started looking into it and got interested in it. I noticed that my views on becoming a nurse decreased because I didn't want to give patients bad news,

Then when I turned 18 years old I had a few ultrasound works on my self. I was scared and nervous, and this lady made me feel so much better. I found it so interesting that she gave me confident and made me smile. So that's when I said to my self that I wanted to work in the hospital. I then did an internship and stayed at as a volunteer at Faulkner Hospital at the ultrasound department. I loved how happy mothers and fathers were when the got the ultrasounds done for their little babies in their womb. It was a satisfying feeling. So now my mayor at this moment, is to become an ultrasound technician. As for now, that is my ideal job. From time to time my friend her family and my self be in front of Boston Medical hospital giving the homeless food. It might not be the best because I'm not rich, but it feels good to know that I'm not only feeding my self, but I'm helping others stay alive. Also I have a friend that is dominican and I send clothes in good condition to Dominican Republic. It feels awesome to do charity. Is my passion, even if I don't get any money, or awards for it, it makes me feel good to know in my conscious that I helped or put a smile on someone's face, that's my passion.
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Love and Passion 

Putting a smile on people's face

Is a blessing that everyone should taste.

Sometimes I can be sad and down 

and listening to a laughter

brings me right back up

Being selfless 

help so many lives

My passion and goal is to make

the world a better place

so that my kids can be happy 

and care free.

The laughter of a baby 

and the smile of the same

can bring a joy to my heart

that no one can replace

why not give happiness

if its a free thing to give

0 charges 0 harmless

It makes me happy

to make others be happy

Even if it's for a few moments

why not make others 

forget about their concerns 

and problems.

Gratitude (Thankful For All)

One of the many things that people say I take for granted and I have noticed because it smacks me in the face from time to time is my health. I have anemia, and should be taking care of it by eating correctly, also by taking my vitamins. I can truly say that it's been 8-9 months that I have not seen my primary doctor.

 Last time I went for a physic, she said that my hemoglobin  was too low, and gave me my iron pills. My refills probably ended 5 months ago and I haven't gone back. Sometimes or most times I can blame on the little time I have. I work two jobs basically all day, my first job is 7am-2:30pm, the second job is 4pm-12am.

I shouldn't take for granted my temple, because it's like my mother always taught me, "If you don't take care of yourself, who is?" I have seen the consequences of not taking good care of my health. There are days that I can't get up of my bed, times that I have fainted at my job and in public places. I know I need to make a change ASAP, not only with  not going to the hospital and get checked but also with my eating habits.

I am thankful and grateful for my family, that even though sometimes they have strong ways of teaching life and showing love, I know they do it for my own good, so I don't trip anymore as much. I am also grateful for my friends, sometimes friends are the best family we can have. They don't necessary have to be there nor they are obligated to be so, but the ones  that stick around and hold your back, is because they love you for real. I appreciate the the punishments of my loved ones, the advice, yelling, ear pulling that they have given me through out the years. Even though at the moment they haven't been well appreciated by me or either have I been happy for them now looking at me, if it wasn't for them, I wouldn't have accomplished half of the things I have.

Things that I'm working on and that I'm getting better at is patience and having hope on people's change for good. Before I used to never have any problem on dismissing people out of my life because my patience was low and so was my hope. Now I am simply working on it. I did suffered and cried so much because letting go on people you care about, it's hard. And I was just taking it as a habit. You spoke about me? I didn't ask you anything, I would just walk away and suffer all on my own. Now I have better patience and much better communication and ask a little more to those who hurt me, and even have hope in their change for them to better themselves. I'm not perfect, and I am still not there, but I'm a working progress and I am trying to better my self in every aspect that I can and that is possible to.

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The sea and the wind

Feeling the salty wind
And the nature's aroma
might be like a dream.

Sometimes just by swimming                      
in these blue sea
helps you dream

At times you may
feel like you're flying
in the sky.

Comparing the sea from the
sky at a dark night
is impossible.

You can see the moon,
and the stars
glowing at both ends.

The reflection of all things
you can find at the sea
like a clear mirror.

The best feeling
of the cool wind
running through your body.

  

Overcoming Fear

Fear is something that is part of the human being. I've heard plenty people act tough and say they only fear God, or that they simply don't fear anything. I think that EVERYONE has a fear of something, whether is loosing a loved one, getting hurt or other simple stuff. My biggest fear is pain and betrayal. I've gotten betrayed, played, cheated, lied to and hurt by many people in my life. And I'm sure that it'll continue to happen. People are just people.


This fear of getting hurt, is really keeping me away from real happiness. Sometimes people just tell me, "Let it go, move on" but I am really bad at letting go and moving on. It's easier said than done, and I'm not good with starting over which it's not good at all, because life its all about starting over. I sometimes wish that everyone had the same intentions with me that I have with them. I don't understand what's the benefit of hurting others and breaking their hearts, you win nothing. I understand that everyone's not perfect but their actions should still be different.


Things that I've been doing to overcome this fear, is staying positive. Making my self believe that not everyone has intentions of hurting. If they do hurt me, I have to forgive and keep it moving forward. Sometimes is hard to forgive people that you deposit your heart, soul, and trust and they still tend to betray you. But I've had to learn that not everyone is genuine. not everyone had the capability of loving and not using you. Having God in my heart and having my back it's the best way of overcoming this fear.


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Betrays 

As a little girl

I always asked my self,

Why do people hate?

Why do they lie and betray?

Why not just keep it real

before is too late.

Loving like before 

it's not the same. 

People are cold and

always change.

Instead of for good, 

its always for bad. 

Turning you back

at the the people you love it's 

not correct.

Trusting people is coming overrated,

Now people don't trust not even 

themselves.

How can you live in a world 

with the fear of not

trusting and getting hurt.

If even in the bible says to love 

your neighbor as you lover yourself.

Lets race our children with

a different mentality,

Lets show them what love and

respect is,

instead of hate and bitterness.

I guarantee you 

that the world will be a better place.